She felt lonely and more so when she stood in crowd. Everything around her was festive. People hugged each other, greeting joyfully with kids running around. The house was beautifully decorated. Garlands of lights and flowers ran through the inside and outside the house. But within her darkness still prevailed. She was dressed up for the festivities but nothing within her felt good. She looked in the crowd to find those same eyes who appreciated what she wore or just that one look did. He no longer was there in her life. She thought no one could take his place. But someone did.
Today she wore his favourite coloured saree, matching bangles and the payal that he had gifted her. There was still something missing. Those eyes that said, "You look beautiful". Those lips that would kiss her forehead when he met her. His arms that held her close to her heart. Today she dressed to make herself feel happy. Colours always made her feel good.
So there she was sitting on the stairs staring at the bangles her eyes were moist now. A group of cousins come to greet her. She stood to greet them, swallowing her tears. Smiled which was fake, laughed when her heart cried and danced a bit when she felt paralysed. She felt lonely. A fallacy! How wrong she was...
He stood leaning on the pillar. Observing the colour, festivities, people and kids running around but nothing caught his attention as much as she did. He was watching her for a long time. Surprisingly she never noticed him. In fact there were times when she looked through him.
Something about her was alluding. He wanted to know her... speak to her... Just be there for her. He saw the silent tears that filled her eyes and when she gulped it in when her cousins came to greet her. His eyes never met hers. And that disturbed him. He felt he waited enough. "What the heck! What am I to lose?" he murmured to himself. And started walking to where she was standing. She turned to find a good looking guy wearing an Indian attire with a warm smile and enchanting eyes. A natural smile she returned.
"Hi, Awesome decoration... Great house, aint it?" he tried starting the conversation. She got a hint that he had no clue who she was, the daughter of the house. It was her sister's wedding and he might be jijju's side of the family, she assumed, "Yup, thank you!" she replied trying to give him a hint. He was smart enough to get that and continued, "Your home, yeah? Sister's wedding... then why are you here? Shouldn't you be near the vidhi area?" After he spoke he realised it was too direct and none of his business. But something within him wanted her to smile, rejoice and enjoy. She was a little taken aback by the way this conversation was heading. She felt closing herself more... But his charm, smile and warmth did it all. She wanted to talk.
"Ya was going there in sometime. Had some work here", she lied. "How do you know, jijju?"
"Childhood friends! Wasn't around for the enagagement, mehendi and sangeet. Was caught in an important deal. Wedding however, just couldn't miss it."
"Childhood friend?? Oh so you are Akash?? Jijju spoke a lot about you. Rather bragged."
"Oh... he tends to that... wonder why doesn't he save me from this embarrassment!"
"Embarrassed? He spoke highly of you. What you achieved in your career in such a short time span is commendable."
"He is no less right? But I don't do that to him"
"Really?? He differed on that." , she smiled almost letting a laugh.
He smirked and nodded his head. When he again looked at her, he saw her eyes; well done makeup but couldn't hide her solitude that crept from within. She knew everything about him. Didi and Jijju had spoken a lot. Reason being they wanted to hitch them. She wondered if he knew and this is why came to speck to her. But then he didn't know who she was. Was he pretending? He was smart, intelligent and his smile, she didn't even want to think about that now. He was well-mannered, stood tall and seemed someone with all the "gentleman" like qualities. Something about him was captivating.
She could see her 'girl' cousins eyeing him like a candy. She smiled at them. He turned to see where she looked over his shoulders. He waved a 'hi' to all of them and turned back. Her cousins were jittery and faked as though they were fainting. She giggled a bit looking at them.
That's all he wanted. The silence between them broke when the pandit announced its time for the Pheras. Everybody scrammed to the wedding area. People made way by pushing her by mistake. He held her by her shoulder while she held his hand. She felt nice and happy after long time. The awkward moment had passed and they started walking with a small distance between them.
Didi and Jijju saw them come in together. Didi winked at her and asked how he was just by a nod and moving her brow. He wasn't looking then. She just signalled her, "We'll talk later about this". A smile crossed Didi's face and she looked at Jiju.
She saw Didi speak to him, obviously about them .
Didi asked, "Does he know everything about her?" And he said,
"Yes"
Today she wore his favourite coloured saree, matching bangles and the payal that he had gifted her. There was still something missing. Those eyes that said, "You look beautiful". Those lips that would kiss her forehead when he met her. His arms that held her close to her heart. Today she dressed to make herself feel happy. Colours always made her feel good.
So there she was sitting on the stairs staring at the bangles her eyes were moist now. A group of cousins come to greet her. She stood to greet them, swallowing her tears. Smiled which was fake, laughed when her heart cried and danced a bit when she felt paralysed. She felt lonely. A fallacy! How wrong she was...
He stood leaning on the pillar. Observing the colour, festivities, people and kids running around but nothing caught his attention as much as she did. He was watching her for a long time. Surprisingly she never noticed him. In fact there were times when she looked through him.
Something about her was alluding. He wanted to know her... speak to her... Just be there for her. He saw the silent tears that filled her eyes and when she gulped it in when her cousins came to greet her. His eyes never met hers. And that disturbed him. He felt he waited enough. "What the heck! What am I to lose?" he murmured to himself. And started walking to where she was standing. She turned to find a good looking guy wearing an Indian attire with a warm smile and enchanting eyes. A natural smile she returned.
"Hi, Awesome decoration... Great house, aint it?" he tried starting the conversation. She got a hint that he had no clue who she was, the daughter of the house. It was her sister's wedding and he might be jijju's side of the family, she assumed, "Yup, thank you!" she replied trying to give him a hint. He was smart enough to get that and continued, "Your home, yeah? Sister's wedding... then why are you here? Shouldn't you be near the vidhi area?" After he spoke he realised it was too direct and none of his business. But something within him wanted her to smile, rejoice and enjoy. She was a little taken aback by the way this conversation was heading. She felt closing herself more... But his charm, smile and warmth did it all. She wanted to talk.
"Ya was going there in sometime. Had some work here", she lied. "How do you know, jijju?"
"Childhood friends! Wasn't around for the enagagement, mehendi and sangeet. Was caught in an important deal. Wedding however, just couldn't miss it."
"Childhood friend?? Oh so you are Akash?? Jijju spoke a lot about you. Rather bragged."
"Oh... he tends to that... wonder why doesn't he save me from this embarrassment!"
"Embarrassed? He spoke highly of you. What you achieved in your career in such a short time span is commendable."
"He is no less right? But I don't do that to him"
"Really?? He differed on that." , she smiled almost letting a laugh.
He smirked and nodded his head. When he again looked at her, he saw her eyes; well done makeup but couldn't hide her solitude that crept from within. She knew everything about him. Didi and Jijju had spoken a lot. Reason being they wanted to hitch them. She wondered if he knew and this is why came to speck to her. But then he didn't know who she was. Was he pretending? He was smart, intelligent and his smile, she didn't even want to think about that now. He was well-mannered, stood tall and seemed someone with all the "gentleman" like qualities. Something about him was captivating.
She could see her 'girl' cousins eyeing him like a candy. She smiled at them. He turned to see where she looked over his shoulders. He waved a 'hi' to all of them and turned back. Her cousins were jittery and faked as though they were fainting. She giggled a bit looking at them.
That's all he wanted. The silence between them broke when the pandit announced its time for the Pheras. Everybody scrammed to the wedding area. People made way by pushing her by mistake. He held her by her shoulder while she held his hand. She felt nice and happy after long time. The awkward moment had passed and they started walking with a small distance between them.
Didi and Jijju saw them come in together. Didi winked at her and asked how he was just by a nod and moving her brow. He wasn't looking then. She just signalled her, "We'll talk later about this". A smile crossed Didi's face and she looked at Jiju.
She saw Didi speak to him, obviously about them .
Didi asked, "Does he know everything about her?" And he said,
"Yes"
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