One Step

I am at crossroads,
Yet again,
A road lay ahead, a road lay behind,
A step back is against my will,
A step forward, difficult to take,
I wish I could just park here,
All alone, with no one dear,
I still feel dark & solitary,
But I am happy, I don't deny,
A sense of vaccum settles within,
Act as I want,
An act that I mastered,
I am ready to showcase,
A smile on the face,
Glint in the eye,
One drop of tear,
Not one more,
I think again,
Put a step forward as I look behind...